TO MY FAMILY & FRIENDS

This is my pain.

Let me feel it.

Don't tell me not to cry.

I know you mean well, dear friend.

But telling me not to cry,

Tells me you don't understand.

But, how could you, really?

Have you lost a child?

Have you given birth, loved and laughed,

And then watched him die?

This is my pain.

Let me feel it.

Be patient with me when I want to scream

to cry

or be crabby

or talk about him

or be alone.

This is my pain.

Let me feel it.

I know you'd take it all away,

if you could.

But you can't.

I can't avoid it,

Or stuff it down somewhere,

Or run away from it

Because it always finds me again.

The cold, hard fact is,

That I have a child that died,

and it hurts.

So I know, that this is my pain,

And I have to feel it.

To get through it.